Wonderings in wandering

  Does anyone know where i can get a new mind? Mines not  what it used to be, knackered neural networks.   I dunno if it picked up a virus, some kind of Trojan thingy. Or if the coding is just outdated, defunced.   It doesn't save when I want it to, the graphics seem blurred and the sound only really  works in one speaker.   The spell check has never worked, and Excel is a mess. Its takes a good hour to boot, usually accompanied with a faint smell of burned rubber.   I don't mind a refurb, As long as the processor is decent and it doesn't whirr, buzz or overheat. Not like it'll have to mine bitcoin!   The kid down the road with the glasses says he could soon build me one from scratch, all he'd need is a few hundred quid and  the "specs" I wanted.  He said it'd be all new Better, faster, stronger than before, wouldn't get overwhelmed by data and less likely to suffer breakdowns... ...but who'd be programming it?   Maybe I'll stick with what

Sensitive soul I've always been. The gravity of femininity has always had a hold on me, the power of the Yin. Not for myself, but the seemingly inate love to be found in women that I've never felt from men.   And I don't mean to tap such a precious energy for myself, though I do, hopefully not stealing, but accepting whats offered. The strength and compassion that appears absent from Adam.   Whether mother, sister or lover, in the arms of Eve is where I truly feel safe. Waves of oxytocin warmth, like opium kisses dissolving fear, a wordless comfort I crave.